JM BENAVIDEZ

It’s funny how small things can seem like such pivotal moments in your life. Laying there in my bed with Zuriel was one of those moments. Sure, I was experiencing some of life’s carnal pleasures for the first time, no matter how tame or innocent they may have been. But it wasn’t the physical aspect of the moment that seemed so pivotal; it was the fact that I didn’t even feel weird about it. Awkward definitely, but it didn’t feel wrong. I knew that it was only a matter of time until I had given myself, body and soul to him and I almost couldn’t wait. I leaned forward, rolling my body so that I was draped half over him as I kissed him. As my lips danced on his, I let my hands caress and explore his rigid shaft. I stroked the length of it, circled the width of it and cupped it firmly as he moaned against my lips. 

I felt his hand wrap around mine, pulling it away from his body. He leaned forward, rolling me onto my back and placing my hand up by my head as he traded positions with me. He panted breathlessly as he looked down at me with hungry eyes. "Perhaps not quite so curious." He laced his fingers through mine, holding them in place as he bent down breathing into my ear. "Don't get me wrong, I'd love nothing more than to give myself over to you but I don't think you are ready for that much of me yet." I gasped as he nipped my earlobe to punctuate his last word. He trailed kisses along the underside of my chin and down across my collarbone. He slid his hand down my arm, releasing my hand. I knotted my fingers in his hair, as he placed a kiss on my chest between the curves of by breasts. 

He gripped my ribs just below my breasts with both hands, hesitating as he awaited my response. I closed my eyes, tipping my head back and exhaling softly. Zuriel scooted lower on the bed, placing kisses across my abdomen. I wondered if Amadeus had felt the same way I did when I had done the same thing. If he did, he was very good at controlling himself, it felt amazing. Zuriel ran his hand up my stomach, spaying his hand between my breasts as he placed a wet kiss on the edge of my ribs. I involuntarily arched my back and he moaned against my skin. "Do you have any idea how you torture me?" I bit my bottom lip, feeling every bit as unsatisfied. "Probably the same way you torture me." I whispered trying to ignore the pulsing heartbeat I could feel between my thighs. Zuriel lifted his head looking up into my face. "Are you suffering love?" He whispered before running his tongue up the length of my rib cage. I whimpered softly and he scooted back up the bed, lying beside me so that I was partially tucked beneath him.

He raised his leg so that his thigh pressed firmly against my aching folds and I moaned at the tiny relief. He slid his hand behind my knee, raising my thigh as he pressed against me again. I wrapped my ankle over his leg, pulling him harder against me as he rocked his hips a third time. Each sex-like motion brought me closer to a much needed release and I slipped my hands around his back, digging my fingers into his shoulders. Zuriel looked down into my eyes, pausing. "Do you want me to stop?" I pulled him down closer to me. "You're kidding right?" He lifted his hips, bringing both his legs between mine and pulling my other thigh around him, so that his hard shaft fit snugly against my pulsating nub. I lifted my hips against him, whimpering as the eroticism of it. "Oh my..." He brought his head down next to mine, wrapping his arms around my back as he returned my whimpers. "Yes, yours." 

Our breath came in heavy pants as we rocked against each other, fueling the hunger and easing the ache. I moaned softly in his ear as I reached the edge of orgasm and he kissed my cheek. "Let me hear you sing Meira." And I did just that, I cried out as he brought me over the edge. Zuriel slowed his pace and lowered my legs, as he rolled beside me, cradling me against his chest. I laid there, mesmerized by the overwhelming sensations I was experiencing and the intensity of the closeness I felt for him and yet we had kept most of our clothes on. He tilted my head up, looking down into my eyes. "Was that ok?" I nodded and hummed softly, before kissing him. He smiled as I ran my fingers back through his hair. "Better than ok." He caressed my face sweetly. "You are so beautiful. I wish I could hold you like this forever, with you smiling up into my eyes like that." I blushed and giggled. "Thank you." I sighed and laid my head against his chest. "I don't think I'd mind staying here with you like this. It feels so comfortable, like I was made to be here." 

I curled my fingers against his chest. "I could fall asleep like this." I wrinkled my brows as I considered spending the night alone for the first time. "It's going to be weird sleeping alone. I've always shared a room. It's going to be so lonely and quiet." Zuriel leaned his cheek against the top of my head. "You don't have to sleep alone." I giggled and looked up at him. "I don't think I'd get much sleep." He smirked. "That was something my dad talked with me about. The first night he ever spent with mom, was just sleeping with her. She wasn't used to the quietness of this realm and it used to scare her. She popped her head into his room, unsure which room she was in and asked to sleep there, just so she wouldn't be alone." I smiled, picturing mom walking into Mendrion's room to sleep for the night. "I've seen the way she looks at your dad, that's saying something." Zuriel smiled. "She looks at him the way you look at me." I giggled. "Yeah, well I hope no one else sees it or they might gag." 

Zuriel brushed his hand down my arm. "You could as Amadeus to spend the night with you if you'd prefer." I wrinkled my brows. "Would it be awkward if I wanted both of you to?" He shrugged. "It wouldn't bother me... as long as you slept in the middle." He smiled. "But you'd have to ask Amadeus." I sighed and stretched out, considering the other participant in our trio. "I guess we should probably join the others huh?" He nodded, although I could see the reluctance in his eyes. "I don't want to go either, but I'm hungry and I think we should learn to play well around others." He tapped me softly on the nose. "I can play quite well with others. You on the other hand get a little feisty."

 
I giggled. "You know what I meant." Zuriel nodded. "Yes I do. I'll follow your lead and try not to make anyone uncomfortable." I placed a gentle kiss on his lips. "I'm mostly worried about upsetting Amadeus, everyone else will get over it, but he's emotionally involved." Zuriel nodded. "I'll be especially considerate with how I act and speak around him. I really am sorry I upset you both earlier." I ran my hand across his cheek lovingly. "I know you are and I don't think either of us holds a grudge." He nodded. "In that case, we should probably throw our shirts back on and see how the outside world has been fairing in our absence." I nodded and we crawled out of bed, straightening the comforter and collecting our clothes. We paused inside the door and looked around making sure everything was in its place before heading out. I stepped up close to Zuriel, wrapping my arms around him and drawing him down to me for a final kiss. He smiled and wrapped his arms around me, kissing me passionately. As we released each other I smiled up at him. "Thank you for everything. From the beginning of the dream straight through now." He nodded. "Thank you." I nodded and we walked outside.